Friction & Facts

From young, we were introduced to books for knowledge. We recognized and acknowledged the facts and  fine details from it. This practice was passed down from previous generations to now and it would continue for the next and more generations to come. But at certain point of our life, we would realise what we have been learning or believing is not entire true from these books.

As times passes: 

Kids would soon learnt that fairy tales and fantasy are not real.

Teenagers would soon learnt the reality of money by experience.

There is more than romance in a relationship.

Adults would soon learnt the cruelty of the society.

Marriage does not mean a happy ending.

Being the richest man does mean you get the whole world......etc...

So what cannot be learnt from books? Yup, the way of life. Ups and downs. Poverty and rich.Well and sick. We can still find friction books that describes closely to the reality of this world and non-friction books that  inspire human in different expect of life. However, to achieve our 'ideal' life is easily to be pen down than doing it.

Throughout these years, I was taught to respect others, to be forgiving to the wrongs and to move on with a smile for a better day. Hence, it became my habit to put others before self when making a move. Never fail to think of ways to create a win-win solutions for involved parties. No matter how tormenting the process, at the end of the day I would feel a great sense of satisfaction. I was doing fine till lately I suddenly felt  the mental  tension. At the point of time, I would question myself why did I put myself in this spot when others do not appreciate my 'extra' effort! I deserves it, isn't it?!! BUT, at the end of the day I would still overcome whatever obstacles and continue to please others. Yeah, I seemed to be a coward, right?! Well, I do really get mad and hate at myself too. Why can't I just do whatever that pleases me??? Cause there's a saying you must always look at a bigger picture. I just can't get this quote out of my mind like it is imprint onto every inch of my skull.  And it is really killing me!